blackvelvetroses

Moved

2008-10-20T15:14:00.002+08:00

If it isn't obvious enough, I've moved :D

http://paperatestone.livejournal.com/

Hair-pulling frustration

2008-09-04T20:53:00.006+08:00

I. Am. So. Gna. Fail. Finals :(

Candles for ducky

2008-09-03T17:09:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHREYA!

Hehheh, had to yell at her for not reminding me 'bout the Nike Race, missing th BLG's (!) gig, after the birthday greeting.

Newyork, newyork date soon alright, sweetie? :D

Walking By

2008-09-01T18:07:00.001+08:00

It's about the nights we spent
Locked up inside your room
It's about the morning breaking
Always just a bit too soon
It's about the way you're scared
Baby, just maybe I'm aware
This is what you need 'cause

Every time you walk in the room
Can't help myself
I wanna be with you
Hit the mic, a quick check
One, two singing out my lungs
Just to reach you
I'm alive
And I keep my cool one more time
And you just keep on walking by

I take a day to tell myself
It's gonna end up fine
It's all part of some master plan
We're all a little lost inside
Even if i run right now
Swore you off
I'd still come back somehow
And here I am now

I take a day to soak you in
For a while
I'm hanging on the best I can
Let go
Cause maybeif I felt it once
Then I could somehow feel it again

Crushed

2008-08-28T20:38:00.002+08:00

Very disappointed.
Couldn't concentrate in class, grades plummeting like air jet.

It could only get worse, absobloodylutely sure of that.

Pouring coins

2008-08-26T21:19:00.002+08:00

I’ve gone too far to turn it back

Couldn't resist stepping into Times today when I was at Plaza Sing restocking craft materials for Teachers' Day. Saw this book that I really really wanted.

Alright now, the book cost 17 bucks and i've got only a ten and a two dollar notes. What's demented was that I literally fished out all the coins I had in the coin compartment and realised I've got only 16.9 bucks. Sweet, superb luck I've had today. In the end found a measly 10 cent coin stuck in the corner of the other compartment.

Uh so, brought the book and the 2 notes, clenching onto the handful of coin to the counter. Basically, the lady behind the counter, not to mentioned 4 other customers behind the queue had their eyes boring onto me as I release the grip and at least 40 coins fell onto the table which half of them contains tiny weeny bronze 5cent coins.

The lady called for assistance (can you believe it?!?) and both of them started counting the coins and told me it was short of 15 cents and asked, "Do you have an extra 15 cents?"

Call me pathetic, but I don't.

In the end, it was found squashed under the book.

So, in short, what I'm trying to say here is that:
I basically had the most mortifying day of my life.

By the way, managed to keep myself awake throughout lessons for the first time since school reopens. :D YAY

Big City Dreams

2008-08-25T20:26:00.002+08:00

A Lifetime of your crushes and broken dreams.
I'm still trying to figure that out but meanwhile ...

If you haven't notice already, I actually bothered to change my skin. I think this look better doesn't it? The flamboyant colours and everything, pretty much create the appropriate ambiance.

I'm really anticipating the coming September holidays. Aye, lets see ... Lunch date with Shreya at New york New york! , trips down to Kinokuniya/libraries, Gossip Girl Season 2. Those lil' stuff that could get my heart palpitating like god knows what. And of course, judging from my grades these days, i'll probably have to draw out some study plans that i'll neglect in the end.

HAHA, pity they don't have an award for the biggest procrastinator of the year.

No really, I remembered once, I told myself at 10am: "I'll use the net for 2 hours and proceed to the stupid Chinese essays. Get it over and done with."

At 1230, "I'll finish looking up this song first" ... and ended up checking out all the rest of the artists on myspace.

1500 ...

1600 ...

1700 ...

Wrote my fist word at approximately 1730.

Whatever, I'm pretty much used to it, although it isn't very healthy isn't it?
Anyway, wna thank Jenny for the Ultraviolet mp3! Spent at least an hour searching for it and damn torrent (my last resort) can't even make me happy.

Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging! Think I've read the book 3/4 years ago. My memory of the plot's pretty vague cept' the fact that the words "sex god" appeared at least a hundred times. How Georgia's mind worked, I haven't got a clue.

YAY, think i'll go and read up some SS, attempt a couple of trigo-call-me-a-nightmare questions and study Chinese vocabs for tomorrow's test (gags)

Like, that's ever gna happen ...

Fast Times At Barrington High

2008-08-24T21:30:00.005+08:00

Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself.
- Paul Vajak, Breakfast At Tiffany

Their new album is pretty good I must say.
Especially ...
Automatic Eyes
About the Girl
Rumored Nights :D

Alright, gna start doin' some filing for maths.
Damn my luck D:

Ultraviolet

2008-08-19T21:21:00.003+08:00

That fire you ignited
Good, bad and undecided
Burns when I stand beside it
Your light is ultraviolet

I LOVE THIS SONG SO SO SO MUCH
and all I need is the mp3 file D:

Tag replies

2008-08-18T22:19:00.002+08:00

5 August
Jon: Yup, all done!
Jolene: I've no idea too, more organised perhaps? I just need a reason to do so.

7 August
Ziqin: Linkin Park's alright. Do love a couple of songs out of their new album though.
Jiayu: YUP, him! How do you know :D

9 August
Weijie: I know, did some catch up today didnt we? Any events coming up?
Wenhui: Those dudes are a bunch of bad influence babe. Ah, how could you ...
Jolene: Tell Zuxiang to promote me. Junior ranking is shitzx.

10 August
Jon: Maybe a little of both?
Germaine: Hey there :D

12 August
Xinhao: I did, buy me some time, Ugh.
Ryan: GG's nice lah. "Damn that mother-chucker" Woots, gotta love Blair.
Kristal: Got that from the BD preface. Thought it was cool and downright true. (:

13 August
Jolene: Thanks babe, you know I love you :D
NIL: You wont be so lucky next time man. You and ...

14 August
Ziqin: Yup, it's kinda confusing but you'll get use to it.
Weijie: Bad cheeky weijie, did such a bad deed and never get guilty HA.

15 August
Meixin: Like always ...

16 August
Ziqin and Jon: I'll do that i i've the time, but chances are almost zilch.

18 August
Jeremy and Wenhui: I think my board have become some interaction/ communication line between both of you. :D It's heartening to know ...

I'm back on full swing

2008-08-18T21:43:00.008+08:00

I know I haven't been updating, I can't promise it'll get better but i'll try here and then. So firstly, let me give you people a big wet sloppy kiss for keeping the board alive :D

Oh i'll update the picture blog some time later.

And thanks Jenny for the adorable mechanical pencil.
She's officially my personal Santa now :D

School's been tough. Am still dozing off in class, it's a whole lot better cuz I did try very hard to reserve those heavy-eyelids moments in transition periods. But still ... Results hadn't been excellent either. Gna flunk the frigging physics mock SPA for certain and then , there's the Biology test. Ugh.

End-of-years are coming. I always thought I put my grades and studies on top of the list. Apparently, I'm probably having second doubts now.

Uh, so many things to do, so little time ...
Speaking of which, there's these whole lot of chick flicks I'm so gna catch! Dates people?

Out in Theatres, what's needed now is time and guts

13 November 08, Never missed any of Emma Roberts' film

18 December 08, Really anticipating this one. HOT British accents !

25 December 08, this one too! :D Heard that it may be released 3 weeks earlier than planned.

And rumours says that Half Blood Prince'd been pushed back to next summer?

Life sucks, and then you die

2008-08-12T21:24:00.008+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAURA & CLARA!
Haha, though Laura refuses to tag, I know she's reading this.
Bad Jenny gave her spoilers today :D Aww, what's worse than knowing who Jacob imprinted on?

Busy! Busy! Busy!
School work's plummeting, and hell knows why I'm staying in for movies on weekdays.
Not to mention going shopping for books and mags.
Alright, I really have to do the damn titration worksheet which I don't have the slightest clue how to ... , finished up maths and start Biology revision already.

But first, I think I'll need just a teeny weeny 5 mins to swoon over my Greek god :D
Go figure out yourself before I bore you will the whole celebrity talk.

Will update and reply tags some other time. Love you people (:
Shit, it's already 9 -friggin 42

Unintended, Muse

2008-08-10T12:17:00.000+08:00

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Checkmate

2008-08-05T21:13:00.007+08:00

Boohoo. I hate school. I know, I bet you do too.
Finishing Breaking Dawn's first on my list. 500+ pages more to go!
Like how I ditched revision of Emaths test yesterday night and stayed in just to finish up the first few chapters. That's why to summarize today's test in a word, I wouldn't have a pretty wide range of it.

But you know, I actually feel nonchalant about it. And that's what's really killing me inside. I would have prefer myself to be paranoid in any case.

Oh, by the way, I'm officially an active member of ACLC :D
Betcha don't know what it is, its - top secret.
This teaches teachers not to be mean to students.

Picture blog's officially up. Will probably update more often than how I treat this shit blog here

Last note, Cam Gigandet (James) is too hot to play the villain.
It's all wrong ...

Truth that matter

2008-08-01T22:37:00.002+08:00

Removed the previous gossip girl videos from the blog cuz it's really bugging me when I first opened the window and there these 2 big fat boxes, hell unsightly. But anyway, to begin with, I doubt hardly anyone bothers to watch it.

But really, "Damn that mother-chucker!" I like it, that's so Blair.

Ah, I wna go Singfest so badly ... but I'm pretty broke already. A hundred and fifty bucks, if only time machine would bring me back to two months ago :D Think I've really spend twice as much these couple of months. But Simple Plan and Melee's gna be there!

Oh, and I've just checked the pre-ordered forms and realised that BD would only be released in Singapore on the 4th and not tomorrow. So much for the weekend anticipation, ugh.

Kay, I really need to finish up some stupid physics questions.
By the way, picture/mobile blog's already done.

http://www.bringontheshackles.blogspot.com

No point visiting yet cuz it's practically blank. But it should be up in a couple of weeks' time.

Antidote

2008-07-28T21:05:00.004+08:00

The moment I heard this song from Sheryl's blog, I was hooked.
It's probably one of the sweetest song I've came across recently.
But ah, I couldn't find the download link anywhere on net.

Ah, I hate short and random posts. Might start a picture blog anytime from now.

K, seriously, I'm going now. Trigo's a nightmare. I thought nothing could be worse than moles. Apparently, it's too early to judge.

5 days to Breaking Dawn! YAY
And uh, I just realised the much anticipated Thunder video by BLG's alr out on net.

Byebye world, I'm real lazy to reply tags.

I love you, Ed (:

2008-07-26T18:20:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Jonathan! :D
See I'm so nice lah, unlike you, always bully me. Not bias okay!

As for now, gotta run.

9 days!

2008-07-24T20:47:00.002+08:00

Bring on the shackles - I'm your prisoner

I've plenty of homework, but I'll blog first :D
Actually, nothing much, really.

Haha, Laura's reaction to the fire drill today was hell funny. The first thing that inundated others' mind obviously was to escape right? Laura put her books before her life. Everyone came down empty-handed except her clutching onto the super thick Eclipse.

That reminds me of the Rugby player joke all over again.

Z, anyway, lost my phone again. Fingers crossed that it's in Laura's car.

Who are you?

2008-07-21T21:06:00.003+08:00

Judging from these couple of weeks, I think I'm turning into a monster. No, really.

1. I've been getting less than 5 hours of sleep everyday.
2. I've been caught sleeping during class for 3 consecutive times within a week.
3. I've hardly been paying attention in class at all.
4. My results are slipping away, drastically mind you.
5. After reading the loves' blogs, I realised how much I've missed them.

I don't know, it's like everybody, everything has go on without waiting for me.

Go Edward!

2008-07-16T20:59:00.002+08:00

Aww, not the actual trailer I thought it might be.

Laughter's the best medicine

2008-07-15T21:06:00.002+08:00

Haha, I just remembered something - Laura the future rugby player (:
Got me on laughter marathon yesterday for good.

And today Shreya just amused me with her "Things to do before I die" list.
List 1.1 No 3 reads : "To have a pair of twins just like Zack and Cody"

Gone with the wind

2008-07-15T20:40:00.009+08:00

First thing first,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YISHENG AND JERRY!

Went out with section - Jeremy, Faith and Scotts last Sunday to a trip down to Singapore Zoo and Night Safari for some purposes.

Ha, we asked the lady gave us permission to go into the gift shop without paying for the entrance fee cuz Faith wna get the magnetic monkey plush toy. In fact she bought 2.

Ah, then we visited a couple of shops down at Night Safari before heading back to town for dinner! Jerry decides to play Mr-Nice-Guy and treated us to ice-kachang, which is way unlike him.

The best part was teasing Scotts about W----E cuz everytime we mentioned that, his face went beetroot, made him looks uber adorable when he blushed. But it's only that split second his annoyance ebbed away.

Today was Great, after 1530 that's it. Out to Kallang KFC and celebrated Jerry's birthday with section. Got him a cake and a card that reads "Happy F--king Birthday" Meant to be a joke alright.

YAY. Pictures of these events!

So close

2008-07-12T23:16:00.003+08:00

National Band Competition - Super high Silver

Damn, to get gold you need 80 at least and we got a friggin 79.17.
Judges was so-not-generous please.
People are disappointed (& pissed) but uh, Mr Wong was satisfied so ...

Anyway, was pretty hell nervous but I think Under The Flag was the best I've played during this couple of weeks. Merry Widow was the same, but uh, wasn't happy with it.

I seriously need to get sleep now so bye people!

Jigsaw

2008-07-10T20:39:00.001+08:00

Why does everything have to be so docking complicated?

Left me with a burn

2008-07-08T22:30:00.013+08:00

Whenever I see knurd, my stomach did this stupid flip before I cursed, "Dammit, why does he have to be so dementedly smart?" It's like a robot behind human mask.

Have I mentioned how much I disliked my new hair-cut? Although people claimed that it still looks the same. But I look so toot-shitxz now and moreover the rubber band kept slipping off.

Alright, this shall be quick cuz' I've got chemistry waiting for me. Premonition of nightmare - moles.

Went out with many many people yesterday. Lunched (Pizza Hut!) and bowled at Marina Square in celebration of Florence's late birthday. Had tons of fun and hilarious moments esp watching Zuxiang bowled. All his silly stupid styles.

Guess the couple (:

From left to right : The clown, the cow and the butt!

"Go anywhere near me and you're a dead man!"

Zuxiang get carried by Weijie, Lowell and Wei Kian I think

My pretty ladies - Qian Yun and Rui Shan :D

Waiting for Qianyun to upload the ones in her camera so i'll be able to upload more.

Here to thank her in advance!

I hate school

2008-07-07T20:39:00.002+08:00

Back again tomorrow cuz right now, I'm way exhausted.
And screw you Physics, no doubt gna flunk that tomorrow.

Tell the time to stop

2008-07-03T20:39:00.003+08:00

I'm trying to blog, but I think the 5 people flooding me on msn right now has done a pretty good job in preventing me to do so.

I'm supposed to upload pictures (esp the one with Rina's face covered by Mr Smiley). However, I've saved in the wrong folder so ... damn, I bet you 5 bucks that if she's reading this, she'll be gloating all over.

Lessons have been pretty monotonous. Kay, so obviously I've nothing to share right? Right, skip...skip...skip...

Oh, I literally screwed O level Chinese Oral. So paiseh can, I ask the examiner three frigging times to repeat what's polytechnic called in Chinese. Besides, I kept stuttering and pausing each time to rummage my brain for appropriate vocabs which turns out not-so-appropriate each time.

Anyway, went out with Jo and Rina after school. Took me at least 10 calls and a tiring round to get to them. Cuz initially, I felt horrible about cancelling on them but today's meeting was cancelled so, thank god. Another outing next Monday! There's Physics test on Tuesday. But guess what? That measly paper can wait. Ha, I'm beginning to sound like one of the nonchalant ones already.

Z, by the way, I've spent over 150 bucks solely on this week.
Stocking on scrapbooking materials (the summer stocks are lip-smacking good) and presents (:
And wait, the best part : Have already pre-ordered Breaking Dawn. And after that, my wallet's basically empty.

Yay, the love of my life's on his way. (Screams Edward!)

Ryan's "Do you want to start a sharing folder?" pop up msgs every 5 minutes is regularly flooding my screen.

Jonathan wants to be mentioned,
So here goes ... Beware of his cheek-pulling and lil' naughty acts :D
Haha, he reminds me of Weijie, so cheeky luh! Right Weijie?

Gotta run now, The Foundation by Collin Andrews' possessed heroin.

No words to convey

2008-07-02T21:03:00.003+08:00

I need assurance.

Today'd been fun.
Dissection of sheep's heart plus those funny moments with the committee after band.

Z, wish I could blog more, but apparently, homework/tests are waiting.

KNURD'S AS CUTE AS EVER.

Have you ever done something and regretted it forthwith?

2008-06-29T17:56:00.008+08:00

Because I have.

Firstly, dont think i'll blog tomorrow so here goes:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FLORENCE, YOU FUNNY WOO :D
Bigbig love from meee (:

Darn, I hate to admit it, but school really stinks. Thought weekend would have been a slight reward but apparently, they always ahve something in stock for us.

I'm really behind with schoolwork. Have been constantly dozing off in class esp Chemistry and Physics. I don't know, it's like I don't have the motivation to study anymore. Ptff, I hate myself for that. And Olevel Chinese Oral's 2 days away. No doubt gna screw it, as usual.

There's really plenty of work for me to do, and it's depriving me of my freedom. I hope that others will be able to understand my plight, and quit putting me into a far cry worse position than I'm already in now.

Don't hate me for that.

I was never in your league and never will be.

Worn-out

2008-06-26T21:11:00.000+08:00

Z, dead tired. slept through 2 hrs of chemistry plus an hour of literature. yay me

Miss me?

2008-06-24T17:42:00.003+08:00

I'm back from Beijing and guess what? I'll take my words back now cuz' damn it alright, I enjoyed myself so much. Haha, was hoping that the flight wiill be delayed cuz i wna stay for another day. So much for coming back to Singapore.

Anyway, my phone bill's gna hit at least a hundred this month.
Sent 71 blank msgs to Adeline(first on my phonebook) during the trip.

First day: Flight
Second day: Sightseeing in the morning, instrumental workshop, BIBF opening ceremony/our 20-30mins concert!
Third day: Rehersal in morning, School exchange in afternoon.
Fourth day: Visit to Great wall in the morning, school exchange in the afternoon.
Fifth day: Rehersal in the morning, Adjudication in the afternoon!
Sixth day: Sightseeing + Shopping in morning and afternoon, Closing ceremony at night! :D Enjoyed the concert alot, especially by the Thai and American Band.

So memorable can :(
And forgotten the camera so uh, waiting for Mr Ahmad to pass me the pictures.

I'm really gna miss lots of stuff, like:

- bunking with Wanshan
- the long crazy bus trips and laughters
- chirpy winnie's theories
- dinner/lunches with lower woodwinds section
- running up and down along the corridors of the hotel
- Any little jubilant moments

And of course, my two friggin best sec4 seniors in the world, Jinhong and Chanxi :D
Shitzx, i'll really die if they aint around, but yeah, will miss the two of them cuz nothing will ever be the same again (insert biggest heart)

Bring on the chill

2008-06-16T18:33:00.003+08:00

Alright, let's face it.
I'm never gna finish my homework. I'm leaving tomorrow and will only be back the day after school officially reopens and let's see... I've still got a graded English essay, Physics worksheet, Geography half-done, Biology half-done, and god, a 40+ mockingbird passage based essay questions.

Someone just shoot me already. I wish I could say I don't friggin give a damn and actually meant it but uh, I'm teeny-weeny bit paranoid.

Oh crap, screw you homework.

You know what? I think there's all I have to say.
My life's awfully boring fullstop.

And oh, I've spent 44 bucks on 3 books in which 2 of them I've never read past chapter one.

I miss Shreya :(

hyperventilating

2008-06-12T22:10:00.002+08:00

Kill me now ...
Kill me now ...
Kill me now ...

Shitzx, blog later cuz i'm basically on hyperventilation

2008-06-07T23:36:00.004+08:00

Completed watching Beauty and the Geek Season 5 in 2 days.
Kay, honestly, that's about it. I just feel that this holiday's pretty unmeaningful and all and I've only done one third of the homework. Yo, need luck now since I've left less than a week to complete the rest (which i've no intention to do so)\

AHAH. MY ALL TIMES FAVOURITE :

I almost died laughing when Julie Andrew wannabe came out.

Birthday Boy

2008-06-02T13:17:00.011+08:00

Happy Birthday Zu Xiang! (1/6)

ECP outing to celebrate his birthday. Our intention was to surprise him but ah, that smarty knows and played along. However, he was bewildered by the fact that there's a bigger cake coming for him after we made him cut the miserable baby looney tunes cake into eleven shares.

I think the worst part is to have to drag him around Parkway so that the others have sufficient time to prepare. Like asking him opinions on a talking Simpson pen, reading magazines with us and to guardian to buy women facial products. HAHA

Anyway, hadn't had that much fun for a long time. I've almost forgotten how much fun I always have around the loves, and damn, those were missed badly.

A couple of photos, credit to Qianyun (love her to bits), photographer of the day.

Click for a zillion more!

Yeah, pretty lazy to upload the rest so just go Qianyun's blog okay?

And really, I've to go now cuz I've not touched any holiday assignments yet and I've only left less than two frigging weeks to complete everything.

I'm in loveeeeeee...

Shit, I think I've already mentioned that. But really, boys in books are just so much better.

Breaking dawn

2008-05-26T19:25:00.002+08:00

"Don't be afraid," I murmured.
"We belong together."
I was abruptly overwhelmed by the truth of my own words.
This moment was so perfect, so right.
There was no way to doubt it.
His arms wrapped around me,
holding me against him...
It felt that every nerve ending in my body was like a live wire.
"Forever," he agreed.

Catching up

2008-05-24T18:05:00.002+08:00

Yay, I'm back.
Been spending the past days at TJC for the intership programme. My thoughts? It was alright since I've been skipping lots of classes and programmes. Travelling back to cch and back again. But I can tell you, their Mardi Graz rocks okay! Ha, anyway, got this superb buddy who explained everything single little thing about JC life/TJ.

And everything becomes clear now, wtf are we doing in secondary school?
Damn, i'm seriously anticipating what's coming in a year and half. Faster get over with this wholesecondaryschoolshitxz and get on with life man.

Went back to school from TJ to collect our report books.
Results were surprisingly okay, if not, pretty good. Mum and Dad are happy, and so am I.
Holidays are here, fate's drawing nearer. Still, I'm counting...

YAYYY. And thanks to Jen for the lovely cadbury choco bar! Ha, she's seriously gna pamper me :D

Oh, one last thing.
I'm in love, love, love!

Too bad he's just one of the fictional character in one of my many novels.
But I swear, he gives me butterflies :D (not as well as knurd does but well...) Ha, sounds so cliche and cheesy right, but ya la, is true.

But like said, he's fictional.
Damn, I really have an affinity with them uh.

Birthday Garfield

2008-05-20T22:58:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RINA!
You grumpy old Garfield! Sorry I couldn't be there to celebrate today :/

GG finale

2008-05-18T12:48:00.008+08:00

Gossip Girl Finale

I think that Blair and Chuck looks adorable when they're together!
And I'm so gna get this.

2008-05-16T23:08:00.000+08:00

2008-05-15T23:22:00.002+08:00

They break promises
If you frigging think that I didnt mean what I said, you're so damn wrong because you've no idea how hurt I am.

Why did I ever trust you again and again.

Results

2008-05-15T19:01:00.012+08:00

Maths & Sciences were okay, all A1s (: Languages and Humanities obviously sucked, Ha.
Overall is okay, didnt feel too good about it initially but it's alright now I guess.
Love my parents! Especially me mum for supporting me through these times. I'm damn lucky to have such understanding parents that have no intention to berate me if my results wasnt up to their expectation.

Boohoo, what a shame, lessons resume tomorrow.
Definitely dreading the next couple of weeks.

Shit, just remembered I've not started on the discipline survey that Mr D wants tomorrow.

Mug so hard for what shitxz

Did I do this for myself, or for knurd?

Hey love

2008-05-13T20:01:00.003+08:00

Jeez, seriously hope that the coming science papers wouldn't disappoint me.
Cuz right now my results suck like shit. The end. Full stop.
Tomorrow's gna be hell ...

Just a question, how do you feel when someone always promise to call back but little did you know that you're gna end up sitting by the phone, and realised that she'll never do.

Draw the line

2008-05-08T19:16:00.007+08:00

I know everyone's rejoicing over the marked end of Midyears but I'm dreading it already ... Missing anticipation and merriment towards holidays. I know this sounds downright insane but I'll rather endure long periods of examinations every single day then to have - - Honestly, it's like zillion times worst that what you could have imagined. And when I think back, I asked myself how I ever did get myself in such deep shit and to my bewilderment, still come this far. To have semi pulled through this most excruciating obstacle in my life. But then again, is it worth it?

I thought I did mess up today's paper. It's not that tough alright, but didn't give my best shot and there's already tons of mistakes already. Anyway, shall put that aside, not gna mourned over it. At least for now

Went out with the loves today! - Jolene, Sherina, Qianyun and Florence! :D Lunched at KFC and browsed around before I head home first. Was suppose to return my books and rent new ones but wasn't feeling too well. I shall go tomorrow, regardless rain or shine !

Heart-wrenching moment

2008-05-05T17:51:00.002+08:00

My Chemistry paper spells a big fat G-O-N-E-R.

PEHPEH BULLY CJ! (and me!)
HAHA, Cheongjing wants it written on my blog.
It's true luh, dno how i'm gna withstand another two years of torment cuz he revealed my weakness to Marc.

Haha, naughty lil' Weijie (:

Bring on the finale

2008-05-04T01:01:00.008+08:00

Hello people! (not that there's many) I'm back alright.
Isn't it weird to have it revived in the midst of the midyears?
But seriously, i'm gna pass out at another sight of kinematics.

Been getting less than 4 hours of sleep everyday. It's like becoming a routine for me, and that if I were to go to bed at 11, I'll probably switch on to red-panic mode just before the paper even though I've done sufficient mugging. I just naturally comes together with the paranoid package.

Anyway ,I've screwed up majority of the papers already especially Amaths and Lit so ugh, forget it. 3 more to go dears, hang in there!

3 more days to another new episode!
Apparently, Georgina's gna reveal Serena's ugly past and the reason she left for boarding school, so yeah, I'm keeping that anticipation.

How can you not love the cast?
Especially when they're hauled into a cup of 3 in 1 upper east side drama - Scandals, Betrayals and Wild Parties

Going down the steps

2008-04-19T17:43:00.003+08:00

To have mug like shit yet getting horrendous results at the end of the day due to that killer paper's alright. I think can manage that.
But to have mug like shit yet getting horrendous results due to a couple of silly careless mistakes is unforgivable.

I feel like I've changed into someone I don't recognise, in a negative way. I get so obsess with studies, and getting so god damn sensitive about my grades and such. Normally I would be blown over within seconds about the appalling grades but now, it's a different story altogether. It's actually pretty strange, cuz the more time I spend on my studies, the lousier my grades are. On top of that, I'm already on the verge of losing confidence in what I thought was my forte.

I've considered blogging about less cynical stuff, but not today.
It shall get better

Late Walk

2008-04-15T20:08:00.002+08:00

I know, I promised pictures, but I'm plain lazy luh.
6 more days :D

First connection

2008-04-11T21:24:00.003+08:00

First a nudge, follow by a word and ends with a name.

I LOVE 3 BENEVOLENCE :D
Seriously, I've never feel this way. The class spirit, the unity - all's new yet familiar. Maybe 1/2 diligence hasn't made me feel this way with all the visible cliques and stuff. I don't know, there's something fatal about them. But really, I'm touched, in a positive way.

So yeah, we did lots of posters, 2 flamboyant banners and 648 flyers! And yes, Laura, Clara and I counted them out of boredom. But I really enjoyed myself. Especially the last three days. Tomorrow's gna be great, atmosphere's gna be hell lively and all, it has to be. I'm lazy to upload the photos but Jen has them in her blog. But i'll take lots tomorrow, I promise.

Anyway, the midyears are drawing nearer. Seriously, it seems only yesterday when they announced it's going to be in a month's time. And I've started on nothing yet alright. And there's plenty of tests next week so ... Anyway, I'll really have to pull up my socks from now onwards because, I cannot screw midyears, yes even chinese.

I guess I'll be away from blogging for awhile.

I don't know why, but I'm still clinging onto the end of the thread that holds the very last hope.

Tension

2008-04-07T20:30:00.005+08:00

Jeez, how many times must I humiliate myself 'front of -----

Undone

2008-04-01T18:05:00.004+08:00

Forget about the butterflies in my stomach. We're talking about frigging stamping elephants here

Miss Lim saves the day, really. She has helped me with all those insane moment problems today and thank god I can manage a couple of them now. She must have been really patient cuz' I'm the kind of student that when you repeat the same thing for the millionth time, I probably still give you the screwed up look that screams " Thanks, but help, I still don't get it"

Clove has been acing really strange, I must say. It's like he's in this hibernation process or something close. Most of his food and water is left untouched and for 48 hours straight, I see him crouching at the same exact position. Man, I seriously miss those noisy screeches on the wall of the tank.

I'm looking forward to the 21st of April! New episodes of Gossip Girl should be out by then (to hell with writers' strike) I heard the plot's gna thicken and it's gna get way bitchy and scandalous. Gosh, I tell you, I love this upper east side drama. I'm currently reading the novels now but it's not a good as the show. What's worse is that they portray Serena like this taboo slut which she is not okay! She's starting to grow on me, really. And there's this gay thing going on with one of the main characters (Let be chuck please, but I highly doubt it) Ohh, wait till you hear this, the steamy affair between Nate and Vanessa. I swear I didn't see that coming.

Seriously, I'm gna stop soon. This lousy keyboard of mine's driving nutcase. I'm using extra strength to hit each damn key.

Presley and Raisin

2008-03-28T20:58:00.002+08:00

It's easier to hide behind a smile.

Four school meet this morning and I'm pretty bewildered by the fact that I actually fits into the whole buzzing ambiance. Normally, I would've been reading but I'm not. Or partly, it's because the novel that I've brought with definitely lack colours.

Anyway, went home with my sister and saw Presley (after much hasty walking to catch up), some guy my sister couldn't stop talking about ; and I understand why she has the hots for him. That guy's seriously extraordinary cute. Oh please, even if my sister doesn't melt at the sight of him, I DO LA. This shows my sister has got good taste, at least he's not some dork I expected. GO RAISIN!

And because my sister's one slowpoke, she didnt get to see knurd. OKay, she has just peek over at what I'm writing and chipped in
"It's not my fault luh, they havent dismiss us you goondu."

Hmm... Maybe it's a good thing cuz there's a high possibility that ill have to dig my own hole to spare myself from further embarrassment.

White Palette

2008-03-27T22:02:00.005+08:00

I know this is not a very nice manner to start but whatever.

WAKE UP RACHAEL! CUZ YOUR GRADES ARE HELLUVA HORRIBLE. (Or is going to anyway)

Perfect, this is definitely prominent enough.
So eveytime I come online. This tag line shall screamed " You lazy bum, get your ass away from the computer now and start mugging like...right now!"

Jeez, I tell you, shit may sound even inappropriate to describe my grades now, cuz right now, it falls way below that. I'm gna flunk Bio already. I studied an hour on Monday, another hour on Tuesday and four friggin hours yesterday and yet, I can only manage the first, second and last questions. Man, 'm nothing short of pathetic.

That's just nightmare Part1. There's still longarithms, chinese, and the climax shall be awarded to none other than Physics. On top of that, there's something else that has been bugging me. I won't reveal it over here. I don't wna appear weak, but I'm really, really scared.

On a lighter note, there's no homework this weekend (first ever) and I'm kinda looking forward to the 4schools meet tomorrow. I turned down the bus driver invitation for a ride and meeting Rina at 610 okay! I'm beyond nice luh. (I know she'll scowl when she sees this) :D

I'll continue this tomorrow (:

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEIJIE! :D

Mind-detector

2008-03-25T20:52:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I wish you can just read my mind.

monday monster

2008-03-23T23:00:00.003+08:00

3 Seconds? No really, one will do.

I thought boredom was way AWOL alr. But hey, it came back and damn, it has never felt any better.
Tomorrow's monday. Again. I don't know why, but I dread mondays. It's like this monday blues disease I reckon. And it's friggin infectious, in a good way you know. It's comforting to know there's people out there who hates monday more than anything else. Ha, now I've made holding a grudge against mondays seem like a crime.

Anyway, went out with Jo and Rina yesterday. Did some necessary shopping and I got myself a new sexzy journal. The last one was a turn-off due to the big fat lines. Artbox has got really pretty ones. So I'll probably make a few more trips back there to get more. Had my eyes set on this 6 inch thick sketchbook :D

Nuff said. I doubt I'll be able to sleep later cuz I've had this long nap. I'm seriously nocturnal. Sleep for a couple of hours in the day so I'll last for the revision marathon at night. I'll probably get going soon. You know, I had this missing affinity with balancing equations.

Reasons

2008-03-20T17:12:00.004+08:00

I'm exceptionally perky now cuz' I've got 3 new novels to keep me occupied this short holiday (not that I'm alr bored, judging from the pile of homework) - one from the school library and 2 from borders. Didn't even think twice before parting with 45 bucks in a spit second but all was well worth it.

Oh. And the other day, I've actually bought a book that I've already read before. I didn't recognise the front cover and the title due to the illegible lil' font. Anyway, the introduction was pretty vague. It wasn't until the point when the Socratic method used in law schools and Professor Richard Hoffman were mentioned, I'll probably never have figured it out.

Drat, school's getting worse than I thought.

Devastating blow

2008-03-18T18:32:00.007+08:00

There's a first time for everything.

Which means, it's no surprise that I, had flunk English SW.
Of all my subjects, it had to be my best one.
Seriously, I've no objections if it's some stupid Chinese test or number madness, but this is nothing much less than a devastating blow. Even the decent marks from the 3 previous ones seem nothing but an eyesore now.

I don't know. It's not just this paper itself. The couple of weeks had been pretty demoralising as far as I know. My whole life'd been going haywire (like hell it should.) The tension, the agony, it's like everything that's growing inside me unconsciously becomes clearly visible.
I thought the long haul of mugging could prove something more, but no, one screwed test after another. Surely, life has the teeny weeny bit of mercy that allow me to spot a tinge of gratification, knocking on my front door.

I'll have to pull up my socks from now. I feel that I'm far cry from the finishing line while everyone else's already a stone's throw away. Inadequate may actually be appropriate for now but I wont go and reveal my lack of self-esteem.

it's further dampen when you know knurd's intelligence is at least ten times of yours

Definitely blinding

2008-03-12T20:15:00.004+08:00

Down in the heart or hidden in the stars above

Never have I found any other three-lettered word this powerful.
I have it written down on pages of my organizer, with some faded scribbles on my textbook and such.

A very good motivation but I guess it only works for me.

Paper hearts anyone?

5 days

2008-03-09T21:21:00.007+08:00

I can't tell the time to bring back yesterday

2 years ago, my parents promised me a laptop only after I've achieved decent grades and definitely after graduation. However, supposedly all plans were altered and I've already gotten mine yesterday.

Vaio, Champagne Gold okay. Not some lousy laptop that crashes every once in a while when it gets really nasty (though it's a little early to judge now) Anyway, we reached the IT fair pretty late and the only colours left were black, white and red. It was nothing short of a miracle that I managed to get hold of the Gold one when it was said to be out of stock throughout asia 2 hours ago.

Way to go Mr salesman, whatever your name is :D

Alright, holidays peeps, holiday. (There's a more appropriate meaning behind the term). As usual, there's an absurd amount of homework thrown to us. I read somewhere in the magazine that holiday homework are meant to scare us and it isn't really going to be collected. But you know, to be safe, just get it done and get over it.

Enjoy your holidays and mug hard at the same time cuz' I'm pretty sure I'm gna experience the same inescapable dread all over again when school days start coming round 'gain.

Uh, Leavin' is Jesse's new single and you he'd changed so much luh.
It's inexplicable, but watched the music video and I'll probably understand
"Hard to believe that he's the same adorable blond guy from dreamstreet 6 years ago", quoted from somewhere in youtube.

To move on.

5 Days - Patrick Nuo

I know this song was like donkey years ago. Nevertheless, I still love it

Midas Touch

2008-03-07T22:59:00.004+08:00

Forget about the map cuz' you're already given credit for memorising it.

I know I always start off with the depressing stuff, carping about the ceaseless schoolwork and unfairness in life. Nevermind, I'm tired of it all, in fact this week's a whole load worse than last. Alright. Full-stop I won't say anymore.
Damn, I still have urge to blab everything out here.

Aye, I want Shreya to hurry back from New York. The long journey home has been awfully dull cuz' she's unavailable and I couldn't resist the temptation to call her.

Lil' Shreya better be back home soon (Next Saturday!) so at least when I do my daily whining, I know somebody's listening and she'll lent me her listening ear :D

Anyway, talks about whining.
My grouchy sister's gna hammer me if I don't get my butt off here soon.

So Adios

Just skip a beat or two

2008-03-03T19:56:00.002+08:00

Eek. Spent 3 and half hour mugging for geography and realised I'm not sitting for the paper today. I'll have to re-study again cuz' I've forgotten everything.

I love it when knurd sits crossed-legs on the chair.
that doesn't gives you the impression of a knurd. does it?

Drenched note

2008-03-02T18:50:00.003+08:00

Magician that pulls man out of his own hat

Clove changed his shell. And to be honest, it doesn't really fits him cuz' the oversized new shell appears to be covering its entire body and not three quarter of it as it should be. Also, it means I'll have another hole in my pocket since I'll have to buy a couple of new ones for him t choose from.

Anyway, I couldn't changed the water cuz he's clinging onto the plastic palm tree at the edge and wouldn't let go. I'm pretty sure that if I were to drag him any longer, he could have been hurt.

Killer week, I mean it. I really think they should have change the whole concept to the survival game. At least, they could have tempt us with the prize.

7 tests next week. 8 thats if Dava decides to do the retest for literature tomorrow. My Amaths, Chinese an Physics are goners. And it's a matter of time that I was to attend Chinese remedial.

Right now, all I felt was this thick leash tugging around me. And I'm struggling, choking. Just tell me I'm only a stone's throw away from the exit cuz' I'm really, really tired.

ptf, I hate mondays.
Could tomorrow be an exception?

I love it when knurd spins the pen and dropped it.

Knurds!

2008-02-26T18:00:00.009+08:00

For years. This.never.fails.to.make.me.feel.better.

Be-speckled with blue and gold.

I brought home Clove di hermit crab yesterday.
Directly after school, rushed over to Hougang Mall to get one of those after I saw them on an advertisement in the magazine.

It's not exactly what I'll call a bargain but still, I'm seriously robbed of company. It's a bummer that this lil' creature with lady-bug-like shell's nocturnal. It hardly comes out from its protective home and forbid me to gush about my wearisome days.

I haven't actually told my father about it since he missed the whole green plastic tank sitting on the balcony's floor but ugh, I wouldn't risk it to tell him that the whole set up cost nearly 50 bucks.

Seriously, I mean who sells hermit crabs at one for 25 bucks anymore? I bought it cuz' I believed they lived longer than what people had said on forums - that it died merely after 24 hours. I mean sure, those come in really bad condition. Still, 5 bucks for less than 24 hours of entertainment? Alright, make it a max of 1 hous since the creature hardly make the attempt to interact much with human.

But they're friggin irresistable! :D

I'd better appreciate this week cuz' the following's gna be a drab with extra 6 tests, and 2 pending ones for toppings. Since the maincourse isn't that appetizing, I'm convinced that the dessert wouldn't be any better.
Am really worried 'bout my Maths & languages.

knurd! :D
cuz' there's something about your intelligence that turns me on.
I returned to the same place one&half years later with a totally different intention.

I'm pouring everything else into my journal.

Built To Last

2008-02-24T11:29:00.006+08:00

Built To Last - Melee

HE LOOKS JUST LIKE STEVE <3
w/o the punk look of course :D

Hop onto the next train

2008-02-22T22:54:00.005+08:00

I've never been this jubilant at the sight of my bed as I buried myself under those duvets. Was totally drained and all sleep deprived with the overflowing homework/tests sandwiched between long hours of school! Studied SS till 130 in the morning and damn, it didn't come out what I studied for.

AND I WANT MY BEAUTY SLEEP! D:

Anyway, yesterday was absolutely entertaining cuz' Wanshan and I stayed back to chat with Mr Gary Chua after Physics. We told him about the coincidental story and 3 of us kept laughing throughout the way back to grand auditorium. I know this sounds insane, but well ...it appear to be like long-lost friend.

Oh wait. I think it'll be better to eliminate me since all I did was to flash my million-dollar smile (not) throughout the entire conversation with insignificance remarks slotted here and there.

No its okay. This stupid communication barrel, and stage fright shit is already part and parcel of my life and surely that shall be the last worry on my interminable list.

Wassup with my obsession with super cute nerds like -----? :D

Heart on fire

2008-02-19T19:17:00.005+08:00

Perhaps to even hear you speak my name.

Three cheers for me :D
Finished all work in school so tonight I'll probably start revising for Friday's Social Studies content test.

Except for the screwed narrative essay, the day's been alright.
Aye, went to Vivo straight after school cuz' I still owe many Vday prezzies!
Bought tons of candy from Candy Empire &gna wrapped them up later. Initially, I wanted to do cup coaster for the loves, but after witnessing the load of work experiencing some building madness, I changed my mind.

Anyway, thanks people for yours!
Jolene, Sherina, Florence, QianYun and WeiJie <3!
Love you people, may we stay strong alright?

Had a good laugh today at something said that sounds really absurd.
heyhey, you people are cuuuteee :D
I fell like approaching them to clear doubts & laught at their cutesy but Wan Shan wouldn't let me!

hais, it sucks that even your parents think that you're inadequate.

Maglinance

2008-02-16T20:29:00.003+08:00

Forget it.

Lifted

2008-02-15T21:25:00.006+08:00

You must be a light switch baby, cuz you turn me on.

Hello cranky days, nice to meet you.

My neighbor removed the glass pane outside his house this morning. It's a pity cuz' for the past couple of weeks, I've actually made it an acquaintance, seeing how he greeted me with a hint of warning about my constant mess of hair done in a haste D:

I'm gna lose my sanity next week. Mockingbird, MSND, narrative essay, 1100 tests. Those bizarre write-&-race-against-time-to-win-sore-fingers ones. Meanwhile, I'm indulging in the reduction of homework/tests; everything's going back to square one now.

Today'd been fine. Maths was the worst cuz' the answers left for vacation in long lost island. After half hour of hair-pulling frustration, I settled with an update on my organizer, adding a whole new stretch of test/weekend drudgery on the list.

Got back a couple of tests. Physics contributed to my 2 hour of joy before it died down when descriptive essay was returned. I’m upset alright. Let’s just say I’ve high expectations on every little thing I do.

Uh, and I'm forced to polish up Chinese cuz' over my dead body will I attend extra lessons. 4 hours a week interaction with an alien language is already unendurable !!
To have at least 5 hours of commitment, you can jolly well release those triggers.

I'm actually bored now,
When Ryan comes online, he's one dead man.
MUAHAHAHA, i know his dirty little secret yay.

god, what have I done?!?

Sealed with a kiss

2008-02-14T17:54:00.004+08:00

Happy V-day peeps :D

Blame the extensive hours in school cuz' that's plainly the reason why I'm not blogging. But this week'd been the most flexible so far, and I'm grateful for that abrupt downturn of homework/tests.

Uh, already got my copy of Simple Plan's new album. It came with an oversized-tee that made me look like black puff in dressing :D
Was so excited on Tuesday that I could hardly sit still in class and dear Wanshan must be annoyed by my random "I love Simple Plan" speech every a couple of minutes. And btw, SHE SAID THAT STEVE IS SOO DARN COOL ! when I showed her the photo with him in hot pink streaks.

Okay fine, those aren't exactly the words,
But it has the same meaning okay !

Your love is a lie hellllaa rocks.
It has the whole package luh. Crazy lyrics, good drumbeat/melody!
I know this sounds crazy but I love the way Pierre accented the f-k with the gap in between. & David's back vocals! :D

Uh, anyway, Eeshuen managed convince us into the solar (?) hell-know-what competition. Honestly, I've zero, zilch interest in it. Nada, from the scratch. But was really tempted by the couple of days at Biofair/Greenweek exhibition. Pure laughters contributed by theboys, who never fails to enlighten us, just like the old times.

Haha, fancy a date with homework?

To -
I'm genuinely sorry if I did hurt you or anything close,
but I just couldn't accept it. I appreciate it anyway :D

Your Love is a Lie

2008-02-09T11:52:00.000+08:00

YESYESYES.

Your love is a lie is simple plan's 2nd single!
Could hardly wait till 12 feb to get my own copy uh?

To the nine

2008-02-03T18:52:00.000+08:00

I'm a thief, and I'm here to steal your heart.

But who stole my homework mood?!?

I'm so proud of myself and nothing could describe my inexplicable excitement now. I ditched weekend homework and stayed in to finished reading Princess Diaries Book 9 which I bought yesterday.

This book's been the best so far in the series and yada, I'm still clueless whether she's with J.P or not but whatever, 26 bucks is worth it despite the fact that the way she was mourning about the loss of Michael was pretty long-winded. Man, cliff-hanger in books sucks big time. Bring time forward now baby, cause I can't hardly wait for the finale.

Damn, I could pay Meg Cabot to turn my life into one of her fictional character. I mean sure, everything turns out alright in the end and you can keep a blindeye on those nasty drama. All and all, I'll kill to be Mia (minus the throne) in any case.

For obvious reason.

Wait in anxiety

2008-02-01T20:31:00.000+08:00

Or should I walk by again?

I'm hooked onto The Click's Five's Empty!
I came across the music video on MTV last night and now I couldn't get the damn song out of my head and the lyrics is beauuuutyful!

Thank god the weekends are here. This week has been pretty hectic with all the tests and quizes. It's undeniable I'm gna flunk my first chinese test but whatever, I did my very best but I coulnd't understand the damn passage. Seems like 'bleak' is the only appropriate adjetive to describle the future.

Screwed the rest of the tests unquestionably and I am super uber disappointed in myself for screwing up the descriptive essay as well. I coulnd't finished writing and scribbled some rubbish ending that was hardly legible. Damn, that abrupt ending's gna cost me luhhh.

Alright, Benevolence has been Great with 'G' is caps.
The people are uber nice and the teachers are superb! No kidding.
I thought I'm gna end up loathing English lessons by Feb but little did I know that Mrs Lim has humour(!) I actually mastered the art of keeping my eyes open in every lessons except Gary Chua's. The problems lies in me and the nature of the subject, Mr Chua's nice luh.
Anyway, we're gna have Class Reunion Lunch and Birthday celebration on the eve of Cny, I mean how cool is that?!?

I seriously need to get back on reading. The sudden halt is probably the reason why my life is going haywire.

Balancing mood.

2008-01-29T20:44:00.000+08:00

Your legs must be tired cause you're running on my mind all night.

I wna thank the loves wholeheartedly for everything :D
Jolene, Sherina, Florence, QianYun, Joyce, Yisheng, CheongJing, Weijie, Ruijing, Zuxiang, & Jingjie!

Thanks for the well-planned surprise birthday party you guys had thrown for me and I'm super touched okay! &I miss you peoeple lots, cuz' lessons are never the same without you people :D

I love you guys to bits!

One test after another this week, Uncountable with five fingers but ugh, already screwed two. Chinese was done horrendously with zilch hope cause I could hardly understand the comprehension. Man, I seriously need to pull up my socks and come to my senses that I actually had alot to catch up on.

Nuff said. I've started reading again since the halt at mid-December. three cheers alright? Was planning to visit Borders today to get myself a new journal and perhaps a couple of magazines but the rain decides my fate luh.
It doesn't really matter in the end cause I was so exhausted that I plodded onto the bed first thing when I reached home.

For the first time in my life, I'm actually looking forward to Chinese Newyear. Nothing beats the 4days to get away from harsh reality. And the following Monday, I shall replenish my Scrapbook materials for Val's day!

Stupid, stupid crush.
Mr McSweetness, I thought I'm through with you alr.
Apparently not huh?

Teen Vogue

2008-01-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

I want the newest issue of teen vogue!
Blake lively is on the cover luh!

Rolling onto the wrong track

2008-01-21T18:58:00.000+08:00

I'm back using the old computer which I hardly ever touch besides emergency but I can always make an exception. Right now, I'm getting alittle grumpy because it's working as slow as tortoise with leg cramps as it make its way to the finishing line.

I'm getting pretty psych out about everything. One friggin unnoticeable mistake you made and you'll had to stick it with it as long as it takes. I should have undo the knot possibly 2 years ago but no, I chose to fight on. Only to find myself flaked out when evading responsibility may be a better choice after all.
Damn the scientists. How come they aren't smart enough to invent time machine?
I feel terrible. I mean genuinely terrible.

I seriously need something to look forward to, somewhere where I feel a sense of belonging. Anything that is able to bring me back on the right track, allowing me to catch the slightest glimpse of hope.

Right now, all I wanted is to get out of this shit.

So many homework, so little time.

2008-01-12T17:23:00.000+08:00

The title says it all.
It's all about me and the meanie homework teachers gave. Plenty this week and preparations for literature quiz/presentation are no exception.
If this goes on, I doubt I'll live this thing call life anymore.

On a lighter note, there's no Chinese assignments so I don't have to spend at least 2 hours staring a the blank composition pad waiting for inspirations to come by and another 2 hours rummaging my brain to do a good work and trying not to display my 10-years-old limited Chinese vocabulary.

I'm seriously gna improve my Chinese for the sake of O'level this year so that I'll still have a place for higher Chinese and call for a rejoice when I can finally get this whole thing out of my life. Nobody says you need 2 languages to survive. Basics are enough, just for the plain communication.

Lessons has been alright so far. We have a few decent teachers, a couple of firm ones and of course the type that urge you to sleep in class. (hint: physics) I don't know if it's the nature of the subject or the way he teaches but it totally bores me to tears.
Timetable's changed again and no, I don't like it. We back off to the usual 4.15 on mondays and I can't afford to stock my scrapbook supplies anymore for double stamps.

Completed the whole season 1 of Gossipgirls already and now I have nothing to look forward to! The TV series has been amazing, well much better than the books I read 3 years ago. Alright, cancel out the s cause I gave up after reading the first book. Another absence of driving climax.

Got to run already. My left eye hurts and stupid Ryan has been spreading around that I wore eyeliner luh. Ha. I wish. I still have this thing for guys who have an affinity for eyeliner.

It never dies.

Shoved aside

2008-01-04T19:43:00.000+08:00

Shoot me already.

If I were to say that I'm trashed with homework, it'll be abit of an understatement because apparently, I'm certain that the amount of homework/tests/presentations given to us could form Singapore's new hill, if accumulated. Mind you, it's only the third day.

I think i'll be on hiatus for a while or maybe I'll drop by to blog once in a while.
Right now, I'm hell busy and I doubt any of my daily-school rantings will interest you guys.

Till then.

that familiar feeling still lingers.

Bring in the dark clouds

2007-12-31T20:02:00.000+08:00

Let's just put it this way.
2008's gna stink big time.

After looking at the much anticipated timetable, I think that death's looking like the only positive option on my list.

Reaching home before three doesn't exist anymore. Nice and friendly teachers are banished from this world or rather my world and replaced by alien-characterized ones.

Seriously, 3Bn doesn't sound like my ideal studying environment anymore

Hold on tight

2007-12-30T15:26:00.000+08:00

I don't believe this.
A few days back, I happened to be sitting in front of the TV screen, flipping through channels when I stumbled into Starworld.

Flabbergasted, I tried a couple more channels.
I'd MTV and Starworld channel for nearly 5 years and I don't have the slightest clue. I wouldn't be that bad if I've figured it out in the beginning of the holidays but right now, I doubt I'll be able to indulge in any of the shows under the watchful eyes of my parents.

I've finished those tedious homework already. Done journals before December approached and procrastinated for another month before starting on Chinese. I didn't even cook before attempting the essay like I was told to on the piece of instruction paper possibly stuck at the bottom of my many textbooks.

So let's see...Less 48 hours till we wave off 2007. My instincts has been screaming loud enough to let me know that it'll be marked down in my history as the Year Of Disaster. I'm not kidding here. I know how I feel and it ain't feels right. I mean, it's not one of those school days dread which I could easily get over by 24 hours but hey, we're talking about an entire year here.

I'll be Miss Worry anytime from now. I can live with it.

The clock doesn't stop for Cinderella so I don't see any reason they should stop for me.

Hell, I'm hooked onto Gossip Girl TV series and I couldn't get enough of it.

Throw in parties, love triangle, occasional back stabs, sex, scandals and you get the drama.
Oh! And the cast is Sizzling Hot no?

Worth celebrating

2007-12-27T19:04:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DAR JOLENE
& MY ALWAYS-SEXY PIG XM (tomorrow) :D

Mrs rushton to be

2007-12-25T16:27:00.000+08:00

I can't help but to put this up as well cuz' if you look closely,
Steve's facial expression is hell hilarious here.

Ticket Outta Loserville

2007-12-24T14:26:00.000+08:00

Son of Dork - Ticket Outta Loserville (Live @ TOTP)

I LOVE SOD!
and Steve's super adorable in here!

I WANT THEM BACK! :(

Little did she know

2007-12-24T10:07:00.000+08:00

I came to two conclusion yesterday.

1. Sherina has acting/convincing hidden talent.

2. Jolene can easily buy any stories.

We threw a surprise birthday party for Jo at ecp yesterday. It turns out really well cause no doubt she was in shock.

Left home early to meet the guys at parkway to get party supplies (balloons, paper plates ...etc) and the cake. HAHA and waited for Sher and Jo who was clueless that we're planning it luh.

Then after the celebration we cycled in the rain :D

Alright, full story at Jo's blog! I'm going for the pictures now.

Perspective

2007-12-22T00:49:00.000+08:00

Okay, it's close to one in the morning and I've absolutely no idea what urge me to blog this moment.

I did some blog hopping to award myself after completing one Chinese test thrice! I deserve a clap do I? On any other days, I couldn't care less since Chinese doesn't exist in my world but then again, I hate those fugly red marks staining in my portal.

Lets just say the 2008 batch of secondary ones have alot of views about being admitted to cchms. Many positive ones, and of course a couple who display much reluctance and a growing malignance.

You know, the continuous frustration and whining.
I can understand them.

Believe it or not. I was one of them.

Cchms wasn't my first choice and all my other besties were in another school. I mourned and lamented for days, weeks.
Didn't concentrate in class and tried to comfort myself by reminding myself I'll be leaving in a couple of days and I'll just put up with it for a moment with of course a hint of doubt.

I pretty much set a dog-eye in every aspect of the school. The building, the people, the teachers, the rules etc. I dread school every single day couldn't part my watch for every single minute.

In short, I hated the school.

Half a year passed, a year passed, 2 years passed, I can laughed it off and take back my words now. I've got a bunch of fabulous-to-the-core friends and I love them to death.

I'm proud to be part of chung cheng and I love it here (except for you-know-what) But whatever, I still love it here and I dare to call it my second home (after Borders that's it)

Oh, and HMV.

I know everything above sounds crazy but I wna share it with whoever's reading this now.

Etched

2007-12-19T16:33:00.000+08:00

Cherished what you've been blessed with and not the loss.

To the loves:
The key word is believe.
We'll stay strong people :D

Hopping mad

2007-12-18T17:33:00.000+08:00

I know this sounds crazy but well, here goes.
I LOVE PUMPKIN SOUP!
Okay, I know Shreya would say that i'm into whatever soups luh.

Cream Of Mushroom, Minestrone, Clam Chowder (without the clam HAHA), Corn ... you name it.
Shreya if you're reading this, save the smirk.
but roasted pumpkin soup is on top of my list now. Stupid cravings.

Seriously, that was random.

Anyway, went out with the loves yesterday - Jo, Sherina, Weijie & Ruijng.
Watched Alvin and the Chipmunks. I'm impressed about how Jesse McCartney's voice turn out to be.
Lunch was really funny cause of JO AND THE COW.

I'm down with parched throat and major swollen gums.
I'll draw you a picture. They're swollen to the size of a mini-bloated curry puff. I'll let your imagination run wild to define the word 'mini'
Yeah, but it's like I'm only given two choices:

Either to allow my jaws to hang open inviting passing flies or whatever to enter or by shutting tight and endure the pain.

How does one never gives in to depression, confusion and self-doubt?

Alright people! Look and learn how I kill boredom. The get-a-stick-and-hit is so yesterday.

Dear Santa,
I've been a way too excellent kid this year (gags) so I'm just wondering if I could have my present?
Choose one below the list and drop it on my bed on Christmas eve's night okay?
THANKYOU in advance!

P.S. Your red suit is getting way to dirty. Have you washed them? OOPS.

1. Esnips to start working again
2. Parent's approval in you-know-what
3. 2008 to be a fabulous year (to prove my instincts wrong)
4. Make new friends and keep the old
5. World Peace
6. A bottle-full of priceless courage
7. Satisfying grades
8. Good hair days
9. A sudden increase of growth attack
10. Books are always welcome :D

Perth

2007-12-12T17:03:00.000+08:00

Back from Perth!
The weather there was surprisingly cold despite in summer, the beaches are really beautiful, everything cost a bomb and there are plenty of hot guys.

That's bout it.

Oh plus that palm-sized eight-legged monster we saw sticking onto the walls of our bedroom in the farm but the magnificant stars we witnessed at night made up for it.

I swear, they were amazing.

And I can't deny your eyes
You know I try to read between the lines
I saw a warning sign
And then you threw me up against the wall
Who said that it's better to have loved and lost?
I wish that I had never loved at all

Totally rock my house!
Pity it took nearly 10 plays to realise it though

Holidays are nearly over, just a couple of weeks left and I'm left to face hell.
Next year's gna be pretty bad, I just know it.
Haven't got the time to start Chinese yet. Fine, you're right. I'm just too lazy to get over that pile of junk.

An Inch Forward

2007-12-01T12:20:00.000+08:00

Yay me :D
Completed that whole load of 10 weeks journal, went for a second piercing and got myself a newurbanmale bag. Not the one I've been eyeing for months though.

But still, yay me :D

My new title

2007-11-26T18:44:00.000+08:00

I've entirely no clue what gives me the urge to blog now because if there's anything wanted to do right this minute, coming online to enjoy interaction with the keyboard will be at the bottom of the list.

Okay, I wont deny it. I'm switching on to my weary and dispirit mood.
I'm still alright yesterday. Laughing and messing around with cards at Starbucks for 3 hours with my loves who never fails to draw that smile on my face.

But once I sat face to face with the monitor screen, I'm obliged to face another wave of emptiness and certain inevitable thoughts that revolve around my mind. I'm not talking about major make-you-go-headache problems. Just the typical ones.

Maybe it's the thought of being stuck at home for another week before seeing my loves again. Maybe it's the thought of sheer pressure next year. Maybe it's the thought of how I ought to whip up a story on how my big massive mouth crushed someone's dream. No, not someone's. My good friend's to be precise. I knew he could have pursue it even without my words but then again, I'm partly to blame.

Only one person involved right?
Wrong.

How about disappointing someone who yearns and anticipates being blessed by the ability to look at him during monotonous lessons? In short, I'm all to blame for the fact they're apart.

I could go well with crushing good friends' dreams title.
Anytime.

I'm sorry.

Vanished

2007-11-25T21:20:00.000+08:00

I'm positively certain that it's my fault.
and it just drained all happiness out that was present a minute ago.

I screwed up again.

Down The Hill

2007-11-20T15:23:00.000+08:00

Who says holidays meant excitement, emptying piggybanks and tossing aside worksheets and textbooks?

Okay fine, leave the last part out.
But still, I feel as though this is like some sort of silly competition to see who could ward off boredom for two months. Whoever wins get this oversized tee thrown over their head that reads "I survived 2 months of shit and I feel a sense of accomplishment".

I've already done finding definitions of those 10 weeks of words, you know, the matching and fill-in-the-blanks stuff. Not those journals. I still need to find the right time to muster good inspirations to start on those. And a horrible start on one of the chinese test. It's looks pretty okay to me without mum's help.

I think I have a date with shreya tomorrow.
Movie, Doughnuts (Already sick of it, but hey, I can do the watching instead) and restocking my scrapbook supplies. I was sitting glued to the monitor screen when I just thought of a brilliant idea that involve some makeover in my room.

I don't think my parents are gna be too thrilled about it so I don't really intend to let them know about it first. Just had a tiff with my dad so uh, things are pretty unstable at home. Mum and dad are quarreling over some stupid crumple pieces of papers with a few certain digits on it.

Whoever says that money makes the world go round is wrong.
Money make this world go upside down.
Man, it's like this whole rotten world and your lives depanded on financial security.

And uh, I think Son Of Dork's future's pretty bleak.
Kinda miss watching their new gigs on youtube. Dave and Chris'd quited like a month ago, Danny's got a new band, Steve's writing songs (I love him :D) and James' in America busy with his girlfriend's band.

You Got It

2007-11-20T15:05:00.000+08:00

You Got It - Lucas Grabeel

Lucas's friggin' adorable here :D

I Miss My Friends

2007-11-18T09:25:00.000+08:00

I miss my friends.

Eliminate Thrill

2007-11-14T18:34:00.000+08:00

Congratulations, I just awarded myself with a slap for being the worst loser in town.

Bitter End

2007-11-14T17:50:00.000+08:00

My reasons for appeal

I have doubt in handling 9 major subjects next year, which is a very tedious thing if as I've a very time-consuming CCA which already took away half of my weekends and thats usually the ideal time for revision.

On top of that, having to take 9 subjects and being in the best class means that each and every teacher will eventually have higher expectations on you. However, I merely scraped by the needed criteria for 9sub (by only 0.3) and only a couple of marks for English. Not that I wouldn't give my best shot next year, it's just I wouldn’t be so sure I will do as well as I did this time round.

Having surrounded by smart students sure give one the ‘push’ to thrive for better results and constant reminder of revision, but it may also mean more stress and pressure for another. Perhaps, I’ll be all demoralized by the time O'levels comes around. I'm sure you agree with me that this isn't very healthy isn’t it?

8Triple (E Geog) seems like the best choice for me. You can say it's my passion for Sciences, regardless Physics, Chemistry or Biology. As for the need to question my ability to tackle the one and only humanity, I can state with certainty that I will put all my best efforts on it instead of having to concentrate on 2 humanities. Besides, Literature really isn't worth studying.

I feel that it's unfair for the school to place me in my second option when clearly; I'm eligible for the first. Don't I have the priority to get into my first choice before the others since my results are decent enough?

I can assure you that I'll do my very best to attained the best results next year and I hereby sincerely hope that the school will acknowledge my appeal from 9subjects to 8Triple (E Geog) Many thanks.

Went to school with a mindset that urge me to appeal but Xiaolin mentioned that even if my appeal to Triple is successful, I'll still be in the 9sub class.

And I don't see why I should appeal anymore since the main reasons why I'm appealing in the first place is to avoid tough competition and also have a few familiar faces around when school starts.

I guess I shall just drop a couple of subjects along the route to hell.

Anyway, I'm having my fingers crossed and hope that I'll not get Davamoni for Literature. (Not for racist purposes her or anything) I just don't have a affinity for teachers who calls on students for answers.

Smugging and gloating over our misfortune and embarrassment.
Those stupid one minute of pleasure.

The professors in Law Schools are probably worst though.
I read that once in a book.

I'm so not looking forward to upper sec luh.
Right now, I'm leading a lousy-to the max life.

Get a grip.

Appeal Form

2007-11-13T18:28:00.000+08:00

Completed the short essay on the reasons for my appeal.
Inspirations from Ryan :D

Out of Boredom

2007-11-13T09:21:00.000+08:00

Okay, a temporary new skin.
It's a little screwed but just bear with it for a moment.
I don't know if it works on your computer but I'm seeing chinese characters here and there and I'm having shades of barbie doll font colour splashed across the entries.

I don't believe this.
Just signed into my student portal and realised I've disciplinary records on inappropriate attire/grooming, recorded on 25 October.

I don't remember anything, I swear.
This must be an old april fool's joke.

I've attained a demerit point for nothing.
Screw you, school.

I'm awfully bored at home.
I need books to keep me occupied but I'm dead lazy to shift my ass to the library. So now, I'm surviving on copies of Reader Digest lying around the house (they're free) and stories from FictionPress.

I'm still debating whether to start on the absurd amount of Chinese homework given.

Right, I better get going then.

By the way, The Fading Room music are pretty good.
Check them out? Click?

I'm still figuring out how to get those downloaded into my ipod.

Isolated

2007-11-11T12:59:00.000+08:00

I tell you.
Our school has bloody no respect for our decisions.

HELLO? I'M PLACED IN MY SECOND OPTION WHEN CLEARLY I'M ELIGIBLE FOR MY FIRST?

JUST BECAUSE NOBODY WANTS TO GO THERE DOESN'T GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO PUT US IN THAT STREAM.

The school just crushed my future and took away my circle of friends.

Plunges right back to hell

2007-11-11T10:07:00.000+08:00

{edited}

SCREW THE DAMN BASTARD SCHOOL

Helplessly

2007-11-10T17:33:00.000+08:00

It doesn't matter any more.